Begitu juga aku

Ini bukan jodoh kita
kita perlu lebih masa
kita perlu saling mengenal
kita perlu saling menanya
ada cara
namun tak sempurna
itu kau mau
tak semuanya sama
berbalah
bertekak tak siapa yang mengerti
terlalu mencintai
bersumpah sampai mati
seperti
sebelum
yang kau minta itu
kata putus
yang kau seru
tanpa alasan yang membutuh
kau terburu
dengan semua kehendakmu
tak ada yang pernah
salah di pihakmu
ku setuju

kalau cinta itu buta
begitu juga aku



ashraf ishak
6:05 am

29 Januari 08
Rumah

For you

I gave up
my heart
for a love
too confusing
to understand
made ways
with a friend
and parted
with the things
I held on to
we were moving forward
too fast at a time
did we not loose control
and now this?
I've waited too long
to tell you
I've given up
given up on us
like how you did
except you've done it
on purpose

If this is what you meant
thank you
with all my heart

ashraf ishak
7:48 a.m.
27TH January 08'
Subang Jaya

God be with us

When the skies are
clear blue
you let love in,
you let God
diminish all your sins
you let time
to awake your senses
make it clear
let a teardrop
take away your fear
for now
you are with us
bound with love,
made to live
while you
may you not have
seen the light
but God
he'd be with us
tonight

ashraf ishak
7:13 AM
27TH Jan 08'
Subang Jaya

Hidup dalam mimpi

Cinta itu tak tau makna, budaya atau sebaliknya. Cinta tak kenal rupa atau hati budi kita. Cinta itu buta.....

Malam ini
langit gelap
tiada bintang dapat menatap gundahku
tapi aku
yang kini jauh dari mimpi-mimpiku
merasakan yang kita teringin
semuanya untuk tidak terjadi
malam.....
meratap wajahmu
aku kelu
dan kita bersama
hidup dalam mimpi ini



11:44 p.m.
2/4/06
Jalan Alor

Feels like the first time

Turn back
just to get a stare
but the lights were too bright
to get a glare
before this was that expectation
that the resemblance
was pretty much akward
we took shots at each other
thinking the lines that we started off with
became that of our own liking
here's to all the the lies we made up
feels like the first time......

11:00 p.m.
4/6/06
La Bodega

For Peace

This is a new poem I wrote today. It might not mean anything, but I'll explain it at the end. 

I'd smoke it 
but I would have
chocked it
I'd poke it 
but it's 
already boken 

The Fathwa Lingua 
of this society 
isn't what it is 
or is it even 
what it used to be 

We've leaned 
to hate! 
for what we have
made ourselves into 
A perception
only a caveman
could agree
A perception
of how man 
used to live 

I hate 
what changes they made 
to the world
I'm abused 
by the scattering 
gathering, forgetting 
what it was like 
to be alive 

I'd smoke it 
but I would have 
chocked it 
I'd poke it 
but it was 
already broken 


The Meaning of things 

 I'd smoke it 
but I would have chocked it 

Is how a head of the hunters would smoke after achieving something, but in the future, "the ones suited up" would choke on their smoke after they found out how much they've made out of money money laundring. 

I'd poke it 
ut it was 
already broken 

Is how an adventurer would find land to conquere but in the end "the ones suited up" gets it all f'ed 

 The rest Go figure.

Komunis Puitis

Menitis rokok
cair meja kayuku
berselindung cahaya
pandangan sejenak

pita malam mata duitan
mencatar waktu buku berselerak
hidup susah mati senang
tutup bahasa layang-layang

Bijih benih hancur bertaburan
jari terluka mengukur jalan
zaman penjajah sudah berubah
sejarah laju dari berita
figura Malaya durhaka bondanya
cukup waktu mengisi ruang
walaupun kaya makan sepinggan
tercabar minda kias berjalan
angkat sumpah pecah tembelang
terbicara alibi nota noktah!
minyak jatuh timbul tenggelam
malam berlabuh tanpa sinar
kata semangat dilarutkan hujan

12/4/2006
Sebuah rumah di ss12
Waktu: tidak diketahui

To whom it may concern

Once you've gotten hold
of what's left
you wouldn't want
to let go
for that day
when everything went wrong
has gone
forbid me from lies
despite nothing I said was right
I've tried fighting
but I've lost once too many times
the fear of failure is unbreakable
but it's better to fail the first try
then the next time around

ashraf ishak
2:15 PM
11TH May 07'
Kuala Lumpur

Mengejar bintang di langit

Mengejar bintang di langit adalah inspirasi dari sebuah lagu dari band saya yang bernama Sakti. Ia mengisahkan satu perpisahan yang teramat sedih. Puisinya berbunyi begini...

Ku melonjak dari mimpi
menjelang dewasa ini
siapa yang menyangka
ku cari jawapanya
yang itu bukan dia
yang ini bukan kita
yang hanya membuta
bukan cinta sebenar
atau
kau hanya mungkin
memberi sebanyak itu
tanpa arah menentu
hanya itu ku tahu
menyuluh gemerlapan pagi
menanti yang tak dipasti
mencari yang menyepi
dan ku akan tetap
mengejar bintang di langit

ashraf ishak
2:50 p.m.
13 Disember 2007


Lyrics Mengejar bintang di langit

Diriku
seperti dirimu
menjadi satu harapan
mengapa kau kembali
dan kita
hilang bersasama
dan kita
hanya berdua

hatiku
memegang janjimu
melafazkan tanda tanya
apa itu yang kau mahu
walaupun
diriku tahu
dirimu
bukan yang sepertinya
dahulu

kau
yang ingin berlari pergi
menunggu yang tak dipasti
mencari yang menyepi
dan ku
mengajar bintang di langit
untuk tahu sebenarnya
kebenaran dalam cinta

Lanny Barbie

The name Flarf comes from flarfy which means purple, a reference used for marijuana. Flarf is satire, intentionally inappropriate poetry made by Google sculpting and trust me, there is even an array of flarf poets. Here's my flarf poem inspired by a certain "website". Enjoy.

Cherokee bodybuilders in Heat,
Lesbians on leather couches,
A dream of a blowjob,
pretty in pink,
big butt parade,
three boys and three girls,
cum bubbles,
Germans fuck in a train,
beautiful brunette with big titts riding,
giving blowjobs to Elvis
double orgasms
oiled up and horny
in the end
Lanny Barbie serves her man

ashraf ishak
10:39 PM
18th January 08'
Subang Jaya

Satu Malam

Satu malam
untuk kau ku peluk
kau cium
kau ku cinta
kau ku punya

Satu malam
untuk ku luahkan
ku jadikan
ku janjikan
ku berikan

Satu malam
untuk semuanya
segalanya
tak tersua
tak ternyata

Satu malam
untuk kau miliki
ku perhati
ku tepati
ku berjanji

kalau cuma ada satu malam
akan ku jadikan itu
malam terindah buatmu

ashraf ishak
14/01/08
6:57 a.m.
Rumah

Sayang

Semuanya tak terbinahanya dengan kata-kata
rambut sama hitam
tapi hati berbeda
ku hanya
dapat mengungkap dengan sebuah pena
tak akan menghiraumu
dengan sewena-wena
kalau ada salahku
harap dimaafkan
InsyaAllah
jodoh kita ditemukan
biarpun nanti
takdir kita dipisahkan
janganlah kau menunggu
dengan penuh harapan
ucapan
ini hanya untuk dirimu sayang
ucapan
ini tatkala rindu
harap disimpan
Dia
yang menentukan Qada' dan Qadar
namun kau dalam hatiku
tak akan pernah pudar

ashraf ishak
14HB Januari 08'
5:50 Pagi
Rumah

Untitled 08

The smell of mixed fumes,
weighing my eyes
wishing I was dead
instead
testosterone pills fumigating
like wild fire
render speechless
although it was her to speak her mind
countlessly manufacturing
thought provocative seeds
planted beneath every erection
that he bleeds
the power to immune
simply cannot be the stronghold
of the minds
confused, infused and defused
abused thoroughly
even as we speak
the intriguing truth
lies skin deep

ashraf ishak
6:25 PM
11TH January 08'
Subang Jaya

Untitled 07'

I've not been updating. So here's a new one I wrote last December. Happy New year, and a Salam Maal Hijrah for those I've not wished. Happy Reading.

If your heart's too soft
for someone to keep
break a million more
till it's hard to speak
every moment
is worth the while
that every night
she gently weeps
for today
I'll be here
waiting in my sleep
with silent desperations
that no other could see
for that
of who I am
is who I need
Love's the only cure
for this lonely heart
that I myself broke
love's the only word
that I could choke on
without opening my eyes
true love never existed
simmingly openly blistered
take me not with you
for I am love's fool
and I've been cheated
by you