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Funny how i come up with something random and it just keeps on going. It's my orgasm of words. Enjoy.

when the sun
caught my eyes
submerged with feelings
of nothingness
in between
it wakes me up
from my sleep
nodding
for yes and no's
understandable conversations
of infinite, undefined
answers that intertwine
and soon it all was lost
once again
beaten
inside out
without a face to look at again
trapped
were those that didn't
find a way back
out of a shelf
carefully stacked
under twinkling stars
that re attracts
millions turned on and off
back and forth
and i see you
walking past me
with nothing to hide
except those things ugly
that you
are for once ashamed of
turning me into your scapegoat
of love

ashraf ishak
3:36 p.m.
23rd September 08'
home

Oh dunia

Oh dunia
mahukah kau
mengisi ruang hidupku
atau
haruskah ku melihatmu
dari jauh
aku tak punya sesiapa
untuk mendampingi
hidupku nan sepi
walau bulan tetap menyata
rasa rinduku padanya
dia sekadar tak peduli
manakan mungkin
kau tlah lupa
diriku siapa
entah dimana
aku meletakkan hatiku
bukan di kepala

oh dunia
mahukah kau
mengisi ruang hidupku ini
atau
haruskah aku tetap mencari

ashraf ishak
11:45 pagi
15 September 08'
Kuala Lumpur

Sleep

Sincere appologies
are made
not to be made
for the mistakes
the day I closed
the doors
to my heart
was the day
you walked in
emptied vessels
of you and me
didn't make up
for the tragedies
although
it keeps coming back
to me
that we were never
suppose to be
and I blame myself
for things that
shouldn't happen
when
I could have gotten
what I deserved
as a blessing
to my disguise
while sleep is redundant
this day is full of
dissapointment and regrets
and sleep is the only
vacation I get

ashraf ishak
12th August 08'
11:28 a.m.
Home

Tak ada

kalaulah ada
yang boleh membuatku jatuh cinta
seperti menunggu bulan
jatuh ke riba
atau
aliran sungai yang berderai
memecah sunyi
sepi kalbuku ini
aku rindu pada si dia
sisa hidupku tak boleh dihabiskan
dengan diam
hitam putih
pecah
cuma yang tinggal
hanyalah kenangan
yang ku kait dari langit
adalah hatiku
yang kian menjerit
dengan perit
tak ada yang mungkin
mencintai aku

ashraf ishak
5:49 pagi
7 September 08'
Rumah

Ke hadapan bintang jatuh

Ke hadapan bintang jatuh
haruskah ku menendang
pintu pasir
untuk menembus hatimu
aku
tidak tahu bagaimana
atau apa cara lagi
tidakah kau?
begitu aku melihat wajahmu
serik
aku tuk jatuh lagi
kau sinar gelap
segalanya
putih bergemerlapan
seindah malam
tak pernah kau tahu
rahsia ku lagi
sedalam mungkin
itu sahaja harapanku
untuk kau tahu

biarlah ini kali terakhir
ku memberitahumu

ashraf ishak
2:41 Pagi
Rumah

People and going places

Al-Fatihah for Arwah Pak Samad that passed on today. This poem is dedicated to him.

Moving forward
and not back again
hoping life
would not be the same
yellow steaks of light
breaking the dust of dawn
before midnight
waiting and waiting
till the time is right
circling and circling
with an open mind
an open view of time
people and going places
until it becomes tiring
we will not stop moving

ashraf ishak
10:14 a.m.
21st August 08'
Kuala Lumpur